Narcissistic self-trauma, the society we built!
It was 6 years ago when I hit adversity that derailed my life far off track…
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It was 6 years ago that adversity derailed my life enough, it autistically opened up a flood gate where I revisited everything I took for granted about my life and reality…
What I saw… I was living out in a world where I was too afraid to admit it, that I can only live out here if I learned to be the narcissist of my own trauma…
But I could not do it consistently for some reason…
And so I had to accept, there must be a reality where I needed to not try to do what is not possible for me to sustain, I was sure there are others out there who must have come to know all that…
Today, I saw this video, and I was able to find the words to verbalize what my mind knew all that time…
I don’t regret it… that 6 years ago… deep down… nonverbally… unknown to my verbal self… I’d just decided to give up masking all of that.
