PinnedChapter 3: Unmasking My Autistic SelfHardships, friendships. This is autism! — In 2017, I was finally on vacation, after I had reconciled with the burnout of trying to land the right job, with more than 5 years invested to avoid ending up exactly where I was. I had just finished attending the full-stack course in a Toronto-based institute used by…Autism15 min readAutism15 min read
PinnedInvisible and ForgottenThe masks we inherit, the ones we subscribe to, the ones emplaced on us, and the ones we mindfully choose. — In 2015, I was now for the most part, housebound and disconnected from all forms of social media, and in every sense of the word, invisible and forgotten, to almost everyone in my world. In 2018, I decided to start on a journey to open source my mental health, where…Diversity And Inclusion6 min readDiversity And Inclusion6 min read
PinnedPseudo-Empathy, Pseudo-Pain, Unconditional Love, and Everything Still Screaming It Must Be Hate!In a world where neurological similarities afford the shared delusions, to arrogantly demand conformity, without it needing to be explained. — Some of the earliest memories I have usually involve a sharp pain, followed by my world verbalizing at me like it should not hurt. As I distill through more memories, I recognize that I always struggled, to have people empathize when I was in pain. No one was hearing it…13 min read13 min read
Sep 16, 2020Autistic Inertia and DiscriminationWhere we ought to be looking! — Recently I needed to force myself to scrutinize a lot of my memories to rationally describe my conscious and unconscious behaviours in society with all my insights gained in my rebirth — as a fellow Quoran James Smith nicely put it — with my diagnosis and unmasking. It’s almost like grasping at straws! No matter how…Autism4 min readAutism4 min read
Jun 23, 2020When I ramble!It is because you think you don’t… — What I learned in 36 years, the neurologically-prejudiced reality many are trapped in, indulging the façade of progress, the slow and lonely painful death, naïvely orchestrated by those who take for granted, who do not stop, to think! For the reader The ideas I am expressing here are based on personal experiences, including…Diversity And Inclusion13 min readDiversity And Inclusion13 min read
Mar 9, 2020A tangent about the “Modal Thinking” paradox of Deep-Tasking thinkersQuora discussions around Roh Nos genius Not To Do list! — Backstory A question was asked in Neurodivergent space on Quora: If you are autistic or an ADHDer what are some of the (less than ordinary) systems and processes you use to keep your life organized? I’m taking stock of what I’m doing and trying to improve so I’d very much welcome…Deep Tasking5 min readDeep Tasking5 min read
Mar 1, 2020I’m waking up in a mood!I am waking up in a mood… I want to scream… how long before the mask erodes, that it all falls numb to my ears… I’m asking myself, how many more days… I want to know… how long before the passion fades, that it all crumbles under my fears… I’m…1 min read1 min read
Feb 13, 2020ArroganceI woke up to find myself long indulging in a puke-worthy numbness to systematically being excluded from donating “open-source” hours. …Philosophy3 min readPhilosophy3 min read
Jan 24, 2020Social StatusWhat matters from my atypical point-of-view — Friday, January 24, 2020 🙃 someone ate my "thin slice" Monday, January 27, 2020 🙃 stop eating my "thin slice"1 min read1 min read
Jan 19, 2020Towards Open SourcePart 3: Towards Improving the Odds This is just the last installment of the original three part article Towards Open Source. Creating a safe space for those (passionate but) afraid to do my kind of crazy on-stream means a dialogue can start, and so with the rest of us that are (compassionate — not necessarily affected…3 min read3 min read
